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Preface

Preface

I started this blog 4 years ago but quickly lost interest. In hindsight my motivation at the time was wrong. I have grown immensely since then and my life has shifted into a reality I didn’t dream possible. My intention in beginning this blog anew is to share my experience, hope, and strength that it may be of benefit to those in recovery. 

        I am writing this not only to potentially help others in their journey but to better understand and articulate my beliefs; to explore and study all the paths I have traveled with a greater sense of perspective; examining my interests, passions, and my hopes for the world we live in. so that I  may be a better human being. I am but a simple layperson, I do not claim any expertise; what worked for me might not work for anyone else.

        To begin with I am recovering alcoholic with over 28 years of sobriety and still go to meetings. This fact more than anything else shapes who I am. I share from the standpoint of being a recovering alcoholic, but I am from the school of thought that says “liquor was but a symptom” *. I also have suffered from problems other than alcoholism, primarily depression and generalized anxiety disorder. I have found that simply being sober and staying away from a drink was not enough; AA was great for getting and maintain my sobriety, but I needed more.

         I used the program as a springboard in my quest for self-actualization and  the evolution of my soul. My journey has had many false starts, but for the past year I feel I have finally been on the right path.  Although my recovery and spirituality extends beyond Alcoholics Anonymous, my foundations are strongly built upon the AA program. I do hope that those who read this blog are able to take something positive from what I have to say. I would love to hear from you.


        One final note, I write with my young sons in mind, hoping one day they too will read this and know who I really am.


* Alcoholics Anonymous page 67

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